Requiem For a Dream

Sunday, October 30, 2005


So you're the fuckin' submarine now huh? So even msn messenger would be short of battery? Nevermind... Maybe I dived too much before and I'm just suffering from what I did to others...


Spent an hour reading your whole blog and xanga. This is actually the first time I read your xanga seriously. It's funny to see my name appearing in early December. When did we knew eachother? I've forgotten already...

Baby I'm sorry... I never understood how much pain you were going through. I feel really sad when I was reading your xanga. I regret for not to appear ealier. I regret for not being with you when you were suffering. I regret for letting someone hurt you that much. I regret for not giving you love when all you had is jealousy and hatred. I regret for letting you cry. I regret for not being with you when you can't sleep even after having pills. I regret for snubbing you for so many times. I remember telling you only true love can save a person when you were heartbroken, I hope one day you can really love yourself and others. Even though I might not be the one you truely love but please love yourself. Baby don't hate and envy anymore. I want to hold you right now. I want to hold you in my arms and tell you I love you. I will never let anyone hurt you anymore. And I'll never let you leave in such an easy way. No I'll never let go of you.

Then it went to the "mari" part... All I wanted do is to break the monitor lol. Espeically when I saw "marry me, mari!". Well maybe true love always includes a certain extent of jealousy I guess. :p

Thursday, October 27, 2005


How Do You Live Your Life?
You seem to be straight forward, but you keep a lot inside.
You are always tactful and diplomatic. You let people down gently.
You prefer a variety of friends and tend to change friends quickly.
Some of your past dreams have disappointed you, but you don't let it get you down.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?
You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.
In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved.
You'd like to your lover to think you are optimistic and happy.
You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.
Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets.
Your risk of cheating is 100%. You are not suited for a monogamous relationship.
You think of marriage as something that will confine you. You are afraid of marriage.
In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.

Your Seduction Style: Sweet Talker
Your seduction technique can be summed up with "charm"
You know that if you have the chance to talk to someone...
Well, you won't be talking for long! ;-)

You're great at telling potential lovers what they want to hear.
Partially, because you're a great reflective listener and good at complementing.
The other part of your formula? Focusing your conversation completely on the other person.

Your "sweet talking" ways have taken you far in romance - and in life.
You can finess your way through any difficult situation, with a smile on your face.
Speeding tickets, job interviews... bring it on! You truly live a *charmed life*

Tuesday, October 25, 2005


三天內居然有三位不同的人說我像台灣過氣偶像組合 F4 的吳建豪,只是眼睛比他大... 不曉得該笑還是哭,只能感到陣陣的無奈,心想:「似都似個靚仔 D 喇!」

Monday, October 24, 2005


由2005年10月5日至19日,透過地鐵資趣台及乘客資訊顯示系統邀請地鐵乘客 分享笑的理由,乘客可把笑的理由以手機短訊傳送至 6774 3134(中文訊息不超過三十字,英文不超過五十個字母)。地鐵公司、紀曉華先生及微笑行動將選出最出色的五個理由,在資趣台及乘客資訊顯示系統與其他地 鐵乘客分享,得獎的乘客將獲得由紀曉華先生送出的「帶著笑」購物布袋一個。

It's you. You are the reason behind my smile. "It's not about being perfect, it's about being perfect for you." Stop telling me you're not worth loving. I know you're nowhere near perfect but you're the perfect one for me. I love you. Make me smile everyday.

State of Confusion

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Saturday, October 22, 2005

Before Sunset

"Before Sunset" reminds me of being deeply in love with you... What a great movie. Complex in simplicity. Totally stunned when it ended, couldn't believe that it was going to end like that, probably one of the greatest endings ever in contemporary cinema. Watching the movie feels like true love, it's not drama, it's not fictional.

Monday, October 17, 2005

Ms Yang's Chinese Homework

Kathy: Hey... I need to write a love story. Give me a start.
evergreen2: Once upon a time... In a galaxy far far away...
Kathy: ........................................................
Kathy: A love story of my chinese hwm honey.
evergreen2: 我把香煙放進口腔內深深的吸了一口。尼古丁及其它化學物品混合而成的氣體從我口腔穿過氣道直接進入肺部。我喜歡抽煙。它能在我過份感性的時侯時使我變得清醒,或在過份清醒的時侯時使我變得更感情用事。這一枝已是這個晚上的第 47 枝,我並不了解 47 這個數字有什麼意思,只是忽然間想起...
Kathy: ...Did you make that up yourself? OMG~

而我的中文功課則是《一件很可惜的事情》。被 Ms Yang 的小學式作文題

Saturday, October 15, 2005


If we could see tomorrow then what of your plans
No one can live in sorrow ask all your friends
Times that you took in stride they're back in demand
I was the one who's washing blood off your hands

I know the things you wanted they are not what you have
With all the people talking they are driving you mad
If I was standing by you how would you feel
Knowing your love's decided and all love is real... baby

I thought I could live in your world as days all went by
With all the voices I've heard something has died
And when you're in need of someone my heart won't deny you
So many seem so lonely with no one left to cry to baby

And don't you cry tonight
And don't you cry tonight
And don't you cry tonight
There's a heaven above you baby
And don't you cry
Don't you ever cry
Don't you cry tonight
Baby maybe someday
Don't you cry
Don't you ever cry
Don't you cry

Don't Cry

Talk to me softly there is something in your eyes
Don't hang your head in sorrow and please don't cry
I know how you feel inside I've been there before
Something's changing inside you and don't you know

Give me a whisper and give me a sigh
Give me a kiss before you tell me goodbye
Don't you take it so hard now and please don't take it so bad
I'll still be thinking of you and the times we had... baby

And please remember that I never lied
And please remember how I felt inside now honey
You gotta make it your own way but you'll be alright now sugar
You'll feel better tomorrow come the morning light now baby

And don't you cry tonight
And don't you cry tonight
And don't you cry tonight
There's a heaven above you baby
And don't you cry
Don't you ever cry
Don't you cry tonight
Baby maybe someday
Don't you cry
Don't you ever cry
Don't you cry

Friday, October 14, 2005


It felt comfortable, a sort of relief, when tears came out from my eyes. It was at that point when I realized how long since the last time I cried. 4? 5 years?

Crying in the train station is embarrassing, I tried to stop myself and I actually succeeded. But maybe I should have just let it go. Just let it all out.

Tuesday, October 11, 2005

My Burberry Girl

I love you sweetheart.

Sunday, October 09, 2005

Matt Pearce

中環大廈掛「六四」橫額 「蜘蛛俠」控滋擾 2005101

【明報專訊】稱為港人爭取民主、於去年戴毛毛馬頭在馬場狂奔的英藉男教師Matt Pearce,再次因「扮鬼扮馬」惹上官非。他於今年「六四」前夕,扮蜘蛛俠攀上中環鬧市大廈外牆,掛上「平反六四」橫額,因而被控對公眾造成滋擾罪。他 否認控罪,案件將於105日轉介沙田裁判法院再提堂,屆時法庭考慮將此案與「扮馬案」合併處理。


一身唐裝打扮的Matt Pearce,昨現身法庭東區裁判法院,與蜘蛛俠打扮的女性友人一同拉起寫上「天安門的受害者應得到公義的平反」橫額。他指,穿唐裝為切合「六四」,蜘蛛俠打扮象徵公義。


Matt Pearce
昨被控於本年63日, 非法攀爬上中環皇后大道中陸海通大廈外牆大電視頂部,對公眾造成滋擾。他去年曾因頭戴毛毛馬頭,闖入沙田馬場跑道,繞場跑一圈而被票控兩項在公眾地方擾亂 秩序,案件於1021日開審。他在庭外指,將會在審訊期間,向法庭訴說公義及平反六四的重要。

Saturday, October 08, 2005

End of CAS Week

Rock School was alright, performance was "better" than expected though it's nowhere near "good". The bad thing was that Karma Police was cut though I understand that we didn't played it that well in the rehearsal. Thank you Rob, Angel and Mr Harris.

Last night was really sweet, I want to write down everything but I can't. Not now at least but I got to say thank you for spending such a night with me.

Thursday, October 06, 2005

Too Much

There are too much to write but not enough strength. "Love without pain isn't really romance."

Monday, October 03, 2005



That's Why (You Go Away)

(Jascha Richter)

Baby won't you tell me why there is sadness in your eyes
I don't wanna say goodbye to you
Love is one big illusion I should try to forget
but there is something left in my head

You're the one who set it up now you're the one to make it stop
I'm the one who's feeling lost right now
Now you want me to forget every little thing you said
but there is something left in my head

I won't forget the way you're kissing
The feeling's so strong were lasting for so long
But I'm not the man your heart is missing
That's why you go away I know

You were never satisfied no matter how I tried
Now you wanna say goodbye to me
Love is one big illusion I should try to forget
but there is something left in my head

I won't forget the way you're kissing
The feeling's so strong...

Sitting here all alone in the middle of nowhere
Don't know which way to go
There ain't so much to say now between us
There ain't so much for you
There ain't so much for me anymore

I won't forget the way you're kissing
The feeling's so strong...

也 許今次我己把我的弱點完全暴露出來,但在應該瀟灑的時候我還是會瀟灑的處理,我不希望把自己變成一個死纏爛打很 bitchy 的男人。I'm not gonna ask you why, I'm not gonna ask you anything. it's just a game afterall. Please don't find me anymore if you don't love me. Please don't call me; don't even message me if all you said were lies. But I will always remember for the rest of my life that today I got hurted by a girl called nutnut.

Sunday, October 02, 2005


You made me speechless. What am I to you? What are you thinking? Were you serious when you told me you love me and miss me? Maybe I should just let go of you and let you go home and sleep with another guy. Maybe it was all wrong. Maybe everything you said were just funny jokes. Yes they were very funny, black humour huh? I'm a human afterall, I have feelings. I'm sorry I took it seriously.

A Piece of Cake

Woke up at 12 recieving a call from Victoria and Kathy. Thank you Victoria for the dinner and thank you to Kathy and Burns. I don't really know what to write down since nothing much really happened, but there are days in my life which I don't want to forget and all I can do is to jot them down.

Saturday, October 01, 2005

What a Nice day

Didn't sleep the other night. Went to Ma On Shan from Tai Lam at 6 in the morning. Swimming gala was crap (apart form vic and kathy :p). Had lunch in Sha Tin. Went home and slept for 4 hours.

Damn my life is so meaningful and full of sunshine...

I love you

Not because you're nice to hug, not because you smell good, not because you're sweet and not because you're beautiful.

I just love you because I do and this is all I can say. I've never said "I love you" seriously to anyone. You're the only one. Trust me.